TRUTH
by Perla Garcia
Living day by day, thinking about what tommarrow i will say. Knowing i will have to lie, about my feelings problems in life. Having my innocense be taken away at 8, by that one person i considered my brother, friend in faith. After five years of silence, i open up. To an ex. stranger i used to ignore , now day by day i get excited to see her and wait at the door. 9-27-08 was the date i met my best frand, she helped me get up. She gaved me love and care, when no one was there. Having everyone believe my cousin, having everyone think i was the one lying. "He never abused you, you lie" Having my mom abuse me physically and emotionally, yet no one believes me. The scars are there, they might barley noticable but the pain wont go away. Being accused of a lier,a no good daughter. Being molested by 3 step cousins telling no one, knowing they will never believe me. Where are you god when i need you the most you promise to stay here by my side. But day after day i just dont feel you no more. Little by little my best frand is dirfting away, i am trying to reach out to grab her hand and take her away. I stopped being a cutter after doing it to both of my arms. I stopped getting , high knowing i hurt her. Scars going up and down, iam back to where i started again iam a cutter.I promised karla this would be the night, the night that i let go of pain. I am already high so it wont hurt the phone is ringing and i am not answering it the messages are waiting to be read. But she will never understand my pain. I cut my vein everything is over, but sadly the next morning i woke up i didnt succed, i hate myself. I dont know what i am still here in earth. God just take me away. I guess i didnt cut deep enough so i survived. I have taken pills and they dont work, tonight i will try again. No one understands they took my frand away she was the reason i lived for,knowing she needed me and i needed her. I barley see her and i hate vanessa for she is the one taking my place. Karla says iam way before her, that iam her bestie, sister and more. She has suffered so much but isnt depressed, shes got me and ive got her but day after day thats becoming a dream. Isnt there someone who believes in me. Today i will try again to see if i succed. My problems are too much, my neighbor keeps molesting me. Please isnt there help out there for me? This is the truth and iam laying in bed as the hours past by. I thinking about what tommarrow i will say. Again i lie Click here to read or post comments.
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