Your story is sad, the way your boyfriend took control, this does not make him a man nor is it love. Its about him having power! This issue needs to be address to him as you don't have a child out of love, its rape. You need to come forward and tell your family,friends what really happen that nite, they can help you deal with this and help you to accept yourself and that it wasn't your fault. There is nothing wrong with liking sex you will find you are just looking for love in all the wrong places. You may also find couseling of some sort may be a help for you as well? Your boyfriend needs help as well, he needs to face up to what he did, and try to work out if there was an under laying cause to this. Theres no excuse for this sort of behaviour.But i wonder if anything like this has ever happen to him in his passed? Not sure if this helps you any but I do wish you the best.
