daddy stop it

by MIMI

THIS IS MY STORY

im just a little gurl
entered in a shattered world
foster care has tooken me
im in a heap of pain
i dream of that crazy nite
when my dad brought the rain
he told me im his special gurl
and heldon to me tight
i swore when it happend
i'd never forget that night
we went outside
for our normal walk
we stood for a while
stopped and talked
i looked at the stars
he showed me the moon
i turned around
only to face my doom
his hug was tighter
his embrace was to warm
when i tried to pull away
i was alreadii caught in the storm
he slowly touched
a place he shouldnt have
when i asked what e was doing
he only got mad
he told me to be quiet
that this was his game
that he only tried to love me
he didnt wana cause me pain
when i cried so quiet
he seen it in my eyes
when i tried to stop it
he finALY REALIZED
I DIDNT LIKE IT
but he didnt care he shoved his fingers
way up in there
the pain was outrageous
the cries wouldnt cease
the laughter from his lips
only destroyed me
i couldnt stop him
i tried to ask
he only slapped me
and grabbed my ass
he touched me rougher
he made it hurt
he look at me nasty
but didnt say a word
he drooped his pants
he ripped mine off
he told me to touch it
i wouldnt move

when he grabbed my hand
i was glued
this couldnt be happening
is this even real
tell me im dreaming
IT HURTS STILL
I LOOK BACK AT THAT NITE
WHEN MY DAD TOOK IT AWAY
I THINK OF THE PAIN
WHEN HE STOLE IT THAT DAY
I WANT IT BACK
BUT ITS FOREVER GONE
MY VIRGINITY IS LOST
A WRONGFUL SIN WAS DUN
TO THIS DAY I STILL ACT LIKE IT NEVER HAPPEND
I TOLD EVERY ONE\
NO ONE BELIEVED IT
SO NOW THEY THINK IM ONLY A LIAR
THEY RTHINK IM SCREWD UP
TO CAUSE SUCH A DISASTER
I SIT WITH THE FAMILY
AS I THINK OF THAT NITE
I AIM OLDER NOW
IVE LEARND HOW TO FIGHT
THE LOOK IN HIS EYES
AS IF HES SORRY
HE TELLS ME ITS OK
HE DIDNT MEAN TO HARM ME
I CRY AT NITE
WHEN I AM A LONE
I DREAD THAT NITE
THE FEELING ISNT GONE
I AM 19 NOW
THAT HAPPEND WHEN I WAS 12
AND TO THIS DAY
NO ONE BELIEVES WHAT I TELL