The Little Girl In Yellow 
When I was five years old
The world around me quickly changed.
I no longer wanted to play with my friends
Because they did not understand my pain.

I ...

Listen 
Hear me out loud
but dont make a sound
And listen what I have to say
my best friend

09/27/08 was our day
when i first knew
that i will take that ...

MY lIfE sToRy 
A story that has been kept as a secret,
But must be heard
for this is my story
the nightmare that became my worst..

Since I was a kid and only nine,...

God of Hell 
Do you see this hatred in my eyes
This is the result of all of your lies.
Please don’t speak of your regret
Your apology reeks of death.
I’ve lived ...

TRUTH #2 
Living day by day, thinking about what tommarrow i will say. Knowing i will have to lie, about my feeling problems in life. The happpiness is fading, the ...

TRUTH 
Living day by day, thinking about what tommarrow i will say. Knowing i will have to lie, about my feelings problems in life. Having my innocense be taken ...

Pain Of A Married Man 
I meet a man in college in 1979
Someone elses' husband I shouldn't been with
The romance seem so right
Didn't listen to momma
Didn't listen to friends
...

Surrender 
Sitting in this empty room
Looking at broken pictures of me and you
A broken life together
I always thought we’d make it forever

What has become ...

Shhh 
My voice is shaded in desperate tones of silence.
I scream at the top of my lungs,
Only my decrepit shadow notices.
Silence is my eternal curse.
cherie ...

flower minded 
I am bruising
delicate beings such as Myself are ill prepared for
Brutality.
You’ve picked me
out of the crowd because I am, I was
Beautiful.
I’ve ...

Don't Let It Happen 
Oh God don't let it happen again.
Let him be happy-
let him not be angry-
let him be distracted-
Oh, let him be tired.
Breathe slow, be alert, don'...

Drowned Innocence 
He's got her around the neck,
her body tainted and torn.
He draws her near so can
see her frightened eyes be scorned.
He's got her in the bath tub,...

The Door 
When I awoke this morning
I finally looked out the door
Not knowing what I'd see
Not really sure

I thought I might see
Bright flowers
Green grass ...

looking through my eyes 
looking through my eyes and i see
the man standing at the foot of my bed
looking through my eyes and you will see
the father who is a monster
looking ...

A family Member no more 
Parents are gone, just me and my sister
something wasn't right in the household now
Something did not feel right
I turned around there she was my sister ...

Wounded Child 
There once was a little girl,
Sent down from heaven above.
She came into a family,
That had no room for love.
She knew she was not wanted,
From a ...

Where You Really There? 
Were you really there God,
While that little girl was used?
Did you really cry,
Every time that she was bruised?
Did you wrap her in your arms,
While ...

Innocence  
Every night she hears him
Every night she cries
The doorway to her childhood
Is locked from the inside

She stays in her bleak bedroom
A chair behind ...

Childhood Places 

Old Spice cologne triggers sickening memories,
Fathers are not supposed to touch daughters in sacred places.

Footsteps in silent hallways make her ...

I love him anyways... 
I stand here tall and strong today,
for I was small and weak when I was young.
The things that father put us through made me numb.
I wasn't the only ...

Letting Go 
I was sexually abused by my uncle and I wrote this peom not long after the first time it happend. The poem is about how I was crying out silently hoping ...

Too Numb To Live  Not rated yet
Im fading.
Its over.
I wish it never happened.
It changed me completely.
And I hate myself so much more because of it.

It ruined my sexuality- fear ...

Childhood Taken  Not rated yet
I Stand in a room with unfamiliar faces, no one noticed me her alone.
From the middle of the room comes a small child walking in the shadows.
I look ...

MY LIFE STORY  Not rated yet
A story that has been kept as a secret,
But must be heard
For this is my story
The nightmare that became my worst...
Since I was a kid and only nine,...

LITTLE BY LITTLE  Not rated yet

Little by little I'm writing about you,
Little by little I'm missing you.
Little by little I'm forgetting you,
And little by little it feel's like ...

MY LIL SUPERHERO!  Not rated yet
Hey look up in the sky...
It's a bird?
It's a plane?
No, it's Perla in the way!
She's very strong,
Compare to all the nigga's that are wrong.
In ...

WITHOUT YOU.  Not rated yet
Without you I'm nothing,
Without you I'm air,
Without you I'm hurt,
I don't even care.
About the happiness all around,
All the surpises from under ...

MY DARLING  Not rated yet
Did you know that God above,
Created you for me to love?
He picked you out from all the rest,
Because He knew I'd love you best.
I had a heart and ...

IT'S SAD  Not rated yet
It's sad saying good bye
Cuz I'll know I'll have to find a new place to hide
I needed you
And I prayed for you to come back
So I made a sacrifice
...

MY TREASURE  Not rated yet
You are my treasure far and deep,
Your the treasure I would love to keep.
Your the treasure in my heart,
Love together and never apart.
Intruders try ...

KEPT IN FOR SO LONG  Not rated yet
Listen up mama
For the thing's I've wanted to tell...
The thing I've kept...
I keep thinking
Why didn't you say good bye
Why didn't you fight like ...

why do i deserve this?  Not rated yet
Why do i deserve to be treated like this our love is broken broken for good what did i do to make you think i mistreated you you look at me and you cry ...

Empty  Not rated yet
I smile to hide the hole
I laugh to show I'm okay
When I'm alone the tears fall like rain
Leaving little puddles that sink into my open sores

To ...

Silver Lining  Not rated yet
High Self be with me...

Hold me when I hurt
Hold me when I cry

Stop me before I burn
Stop me before I turn

Help me stop the numbing out
Help ...

my boyfriend went wild  Not rated yet
So I am 18 now this happened when I was 14.
It was 1 week before my birthday and I was all excited.
My boyfriend said he had an early birthday present ...

Tortured  Not rated yet
Nightmares of the same thing repeated time and time again
His filty wet thing going up into the privide part of my body
Being pushed and shoved torn ...

hide and seek.......  Not rated yet
daddy, it hurts...this game hurts me...
how about hid and seek, I’ll help you find me.
come on daddy, this game is no fun!
dad: hush I well stop now....

Just Maybe  Not rated yet
You ask why I didn’t tell anyone
What he did to me….
Well maybe, just maybe
I didn’t want to relive the pain and misery….

You ask why I didn’t tell ...

Scarred  Not rated yet
All I can see when I close my eyes is your blank stare
When you looked at me you had no soul
You struck me once, twice, many times more
All because ...

An Unfamiliar Silhouette   Not rated yet
An impetuous force thrust fiercely upon me
Waves heaving wildly from the savage scene
Paralyzed in raging rapids, thrashed around at sea
As I rewind ...

Do You Know....?  Not rated yet
Do you know what it's like to live with fear?
To be afraid every day and know you can't escape from here?

Do you know what it's like to wake in ...

Alone  Not rated yet
So many friends yet so alone

Lots of people around me people but still on my own

Why I feel this way? It's all down to him

The man that made my ...

Looking down on myself  Not rated yet
Looking down on myself
What do I see?
A shell of a person
It's really not me

I see a wreck
A woman so scarred
She used to be happy
Now she is ...

A Path to Destruction  Not rated yet
I was on a path
to destruction.
I was my target,
due to a deduction,

that I wasn't worth
facing the truth.
overcoming the hurt,
of my youth.

when ...

my soul  Not rated yet
How do you un kill a soul
that died so long ago?

Should be pure and white
but so young the innocence was taken.

Decayed shattered pieces held together ...

daddy stop it  Not rated yet
im just a little gurl
entered in a shattered world
foster care has tooken me
im in a heap of pain
i dream of that crazy nite
when my dad brought the ...

let me breathe  Not rated yet
you said it would never happen again
but it did
said you loved me
but here we go again
been tired of calling stupid
for all the shit that you did
...

Where Are You  Not rated yet
Somewhere out there
Someone knows how I feel

I can't be alone
This pain is too real

I look everywhere I go
In likely and unlikely places
...

TO Love Myself!  Not rated yet


You taught me hate, I learned to love.

You taught me pain, I learned to heal.

You taught me work, I learned to play.

You taught ...

Pain!  Not rated yet
To Love Myself!

You taught me hate, I learned to love.

You taught me pain, I learned to heal.

You taught me work, I learned ...

Tougher than the Rest  Not rated yet
I wish to tell to you
The way in which I fell
That turned my life my whole world
To nothing but a Hell
My own personal hell
Where love does not ...

stand up  Not rated yet
Stand up

You call me every night
Crying on the phone
The same story over again
With the same guy
I keep on telling you let him
Go but you don’...

Loathing  Not rated yet
Hollow myself out.
And listen for empty echoes.

The days drone on,
as only whispers.

Questions grow mold,
with orphan answers.

Abandon these ...