A survivor, not a victim .......

i am 32 y/o have two children with two different men. they are 7 & 11. they are my life, i love my girls with all my heart. well whats left of it.

i was 7 y/o when i was first abused. my father made me touch him and he touched me. after that night he would continue coming into my bed room at night and making me touch him and he would touch me. he would tickle me and only tickle me in my privat aress. his clothes were in my room and wvery time i was in my room he would drop his towel and change right in front of me and make me look at his private part. i grew to hate my father and was scared to be around men. i kept my secret for 12 years. never planning on telling anyone. but it came out that it happened to my brother too. so b/c of me keepint my mouth shut i allowed someone els to get hurt. so i had to act and stop him. i thought for all these years that i was the only child that he hurt, but through my story coming out i found out that at least 2 others, one bofore me and one ater me had been hurt. he had to be stopped and i was ready to put him behind bars. so i told my story for the first time to a stranger at the court house and then two years later he was standing infront of a judge and looking faith in the eye!!!

he received 35 years in prison and i hope he never sees the outside of those walls again. he hurt me and other children and he took my innocence and i can never get that back. i have ruined great relationships b/c of this and i didnt deserve this. everyone please keep your children safe!!! watch for signs and if yousee signs dotn stop asking ?s until you get answers.

the signs:

disconnects from a certain person inf the family.
starts being a shy person
starts having nightmares
doesnt want to take baths
starts touching themselves
starts acting out in school
starts wearing pants to bed, if she is used to wearing gowns (thats what i did)

these are a few. please parents dont be scared to be there for your kids and protect them!!!!!!!!